As I live the last hours of my fourth decade I wonder how I got here. I am happy, although I was a lot happier several months ago before I met Ivan. He was a huge wake up call causing me to see what I am missing out on in life. Despite the fact we didn’t work out, he made me realize how much I missed.

1. He made me realize that I want to get out into the dating world again.

2. He made me think about someone else besides me. I wasn’t always successful, but having someone care about what makes me happy makes me want to try and make them happy as well. It’s just going to take me a little bit more time to adjust.

3. He made me remember how much I love sex.

4. He also introduced me to showering with someone. It can be a lot of fun.

5. He made me reconsider kids. I hadn’t thought much about having any in a very long time, but now I have started rethinking that. I know I don’t have much time, but the possibility is still there.

6.  Lastly, he  talked about how we were put in each other’s path. I am beginning to think he was right but not for the reason he  thought. I think maybe he was  put in my path so he  could bring me out of my shell. He has really helped me put some things in perspective over the last 6 weeks.

So going forward, I have put myself back out there and have been on several dates already. As I get ready to celebrate turning 40, I realize my life is still ahead of me and I am optimistic about meeting someone who is right for me. It may be that someone I already know will be right for me or maybe someone I have yet to meet. I also know that there are a lot of things I still want to try and getting out of my rut will help me discover what is still out there for me.