So I was going through my finances again and I am wondering where all my debt came from. Not the house, the car or even my students loans but the other $50,000. It is absolutely ridiculous. I mean what do I have to show for it besides great vacation photos. Plus a new door, garage door, roof, water heater, and air conditioner. But it is really depressing knowing it will take me about 6 years to get out out of that debt. I am working two jobs right now to support myself and there is nothing I can do to reduce my bills unless I go on a raman diet or sell my house and move in with my parents. I do not want to do either!!!! I feel so helpless and depressed when I think of all the money I owe and the fact that it is being paid back so slowly. I know more than half the debt was for crap stuff and I do not have anything to show for it. I made my bed and now I am lying uncomfortably in it for the foreseeable future. It makes my want to cry and I hate that I feel so helpless when it comes to my own life. But I will just have to pop a Xanax and pull up by big girl panties.
Working two jobs means I have almost no time to myself and rarely a day off. Also with the side work I do for my dad means some of my free evenings are filled with work as well. I suppose if I ever want to meet someone and possibly have a child of my own, I need to get cracking on those bills and find some time to get out and meet some new people.
